We are in a stage of life that urges us to go faster, be better and make few mistakes. It is incredibly tempting at times to shame or guilt myself into doing things that I know aren't true to who I am inside. We take jobs we hate, offer time to others that isn't really available, and dedicate little space to growing and resting our souls.
Most of all, we find ourselves in a constant battle to achieve perfection. For me, the fight is chiefly up against my perpetually annoying friend--anxiety. I oftentimes crumble under the weight of fear, playing out scenarios in my head that are far from the actual happenings or remote possibilities. And I let these thoughts win. They overtake my mind, fray the nerves of my already worn body, and crush the spirit.
They are not worth my time, or yours. They are a part of my body and yes, they do exist as parts of my everyday experience. But they do not have to be truth. They do not have to alter me and repress what I was so beautifully made to do. And I AM beautiful. I am unique and special and made for such a specific purpose. I feel things deeply and express them wildly. I'm not perfect--I speak my mind too often, become dramatic on occasion and am prone to crying easily. But these are areas for growth, not definitions of my character.
So today, be kind to yourself. When you feel your thoughts racing or your heart burdened with feelings of worthlessness--stop. Rewind. Go back to before the room started to spin and you felt the lies seeping into your being. Give yourself permission and grace to make mistakes. Value the process and value yourself most of all. We were not made to get it right the first time around, and you will get no where at all by bullying yourself into oblivion.
Be kind. Rewind--and feel free to start over again.
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